I dont even know where to start describing how 2013 has been for me. All i know is that if it weren’t for my bestfriend being by my side every step of the way, it would’ve been tragic. I have never had anyone in my life support and actually be there for me, even through the shittiest and indescribable of times, the way she has. I dont want to wonder why she sticks around, Im just glad she does. Maybe I did something right at some point in my life to make me deserve such a great friend like her.
For the most part, I have managed to block out the painful emotions that are expected during the aftermath of tragic events. There is a layer in me, deep down, that is numb, and it surfaces when required. It helps me to wake up every morning, shrug off the hurt, and go by my day. I have not forgotten how to be human, i’m probably at my most human now, given that take a step back more often now to see things from different angles. What has not changed though, is how stubborn i am.
Perhaps 2014 will be a better year for me. No hoping. I will definitely try my best to make it a good year for me. Time to weed out my 2013 shenanigans.